Could I be a time traveller?

A strange thing was happening to me this morning.

I was supposed to attend an appointment at 8:00 AM this morning, located in a place where it takes only 5-7 minutes to get there. Last night, I slept at around 3 or 4 AM and I thought I should set my alarm, so I did set my alarm to wake me up at 7:15 and 7:30 (believe me, one alarm is never enough) otherwise I would end up waking up at 10:00.

This morning I kinda woke up at 7:00 but I went to sleep again. After 15-20 minutes, I finally really woke up and the time was 7:20 ish. I took my clothes from the closet and went to take a bath. I think it took only around 15 minutes so if I remember it right, I'd be finished bathing at 7:35 (am i right so far?).

I looked at the time and yeah it was quite far from 8:00, so I decided to turn on my laptop and copy the material I had to bring to the appointment. After that, I downloaded my study materials (which I hadn't downloaded. fyi, the exam is tomorrow). I'm sure it took only a short time, but I didn't look at the time again after I finished downloading them.

So I went out of my boarding house, to the appointment place which is not far at all. I decided to buy some breakfast and a bottle of mineral water because I was hungry. Then I ate my breakfast on my way there.

When I arrived, I was feeling proud because I thought I came earlier. I asked to the person I was supposed to meet with such a pride, "You asked me to come by this time, right?" and smiles. But the person answered, "This time, you said??" with somehow a sarcastic smile. I wasn't sure what she meant by that, but then I got curious and looked at my phone to check what time it was.

8:50 AM!!

I spazzed for a while and I tried to recall everything I did. How could this happen? I approximately took only  45 minutes to prepare. How could it be 8:50 AM?

Then I started to think that I might have skipped an hour of time. Which is totally possible, right? (yes, yes it is)

Could I be a time traveller?

Please let me know what you think about this, and if you have some kind of sherlock-analysis to solve this... (riddle?) feel free to share your thoughts.

That's it for now, folks.

Live life to the fullest,

Janet

Writing your own life?

If life is written, 

Do you see yourself as the reader, or do you see yourself as a writer?

There may be some of you who would think, "Of course I am the writer, because I write my life, I own it as if it was my own book. I'm definitely the writer, because I'm the only one who defiines myself."

But some of you would have a different perspective by thinking, "I spend most of my time in my life to be a reader, because I learn a lot from other people, things, whether it's good or bad. I observe a lot, and therefore I know what life is. I think I am a reader."

I believe that we are both of them.

I apologize for writing such a blurry post. I personally think it's fun to spend time by myself getting deep in thoughts, as I try to figure out what to write on my blog. Sometimes I don't even plan to write anything, so maybe most of the time I end up posting ambiguous post that doesn't even have a clear purpose at the very first place. 

Speaking of it, I'd like to share a bit of my thoughts and experience on writing.

I never called myself a writer. 

I have to admit, I have had 2 blogs before this one. The first one was when I was in high school, most of the posts were just about my daily life at school or weird things that I found fun to post about. The second blog I had was probably not as "slice of life" as the first one, but I made it when I just graduated from high school. I posted some serious posts and some random posts. It was fun. But then I took a hiatus because college started and like usual, I couldn't think of a topic that I would write about. Now this third blog is a fresh new start.

So have you figured why I was never brave to call myself a writer? I was thinking that a writer should be a creative person who always knows what he/she wants to write. A writer should really know how to express things, whether it's their thoughts, people's thoughts, knowledge, or feelings which are waiting to be expressed. 

According to that definition of a writer, I can't call myself one. I've started 2 blogs (now it's 3) hoping that it would be the last blog that I made. But I always felt the need to make a fresh start, once I think the previous one was not good enough to continue. "The blog was too childish", "Too many aimless post", "Talked too much about emotional feelings", and etc.

But tonight something got me.

Back to that comfortable thoughtful state of mine, for once I actually looked at it differently.

The posts , they keep evolving as the time flows. It changes as I change.

When I read the posts from the past, I could really see how it changed through the years.

It's like writing your own history book. 

It really is about your life. How you see life, feel life, listen to life, and react to life.

And now, I feel no more regrets.

I might have had discontinued 2 blogs now. But those are no longer failures.

They are my past stages of life. And those have influenced and made me who I am now, more or less.

Now I'm trying to work on my third blog, and as always, I hope this can last as long as it's good to last.

I've always enjoyed writing to express. I admit I have tried writing to impress. 

But oh- that didn't work so well. Anyway.

That's about me and writing. If you have read until this far, then it's your turn.

How about you? How do you feel about writing? What is it to you?

Do you feel like you're good at it? Have you tried writing your thoughts/ feelings and just let it free without even bothering about how it looks like to others when they read it?

Don't doubt, start writing.

Leave your comments below. :)

Live life to the fullest,

Janet

What's bothering you, really?

Have you ever felt like there's something wrong, but you don't know exactly why?

For some reasons you just feel exhausted everyday, not physically, but more mentally. Sometimes you're just numb, hot-headed, or unsatisfied with everything.

The mood is really bothering you. You just wonder and wonder what's happening to you and why you just suddenly lose your spirit to do anything, even the activities you normally do. 

I have experienced it a few times, and until now I still wonder why it can happen at the most random times. But no, it doesn't stop there. As a normal human being that I am, I'm utterly curious about it (who isn't?) so I try to analyze it, at least by finding a solution each time I feel that way.

Just to remind you, in this post I'm not going to talk about how to solve what's bothering you (if you already know what it is). We're now talking about this weird feeling that gets you, making you feel uncomfortable with yourself, or with your activities, or even with your whole life. It can get into different kinds of level, but we're not going to get too deep on that today.

By now, I know this topic might seem to be getting too vague for you, so I'll just put it straight.

It turns out that the causes are not as BIG as you thought they are.

What I have found so far, is that there could be something wrong with your mind only, your physical condition only, or both of them.

What to do now?

Now let's explain it with points.

1. You just need a nice deep sleep

Don't laugh at me like I'm yo mama telling you to get enough sleep, but the amount of sleep that you have everyday really affects your mood, temper, spirit, or anything related to your states of mind. Do not underestimate the power of sleeping. When you only get 1-2 hours of sleep a day, you would probably find yourself yelling for something you usually wouldn't be so bothered about. Sleep well, and you'll get a fresh fresh mind.

2. Please motivate me

This sounds really cliche, but motivation is the very basic thing that keeps you going on with your life. Everyone wants to achieve a specific something, whether it's good grades, a scholarship, perfect partner, or even eternal life, something MUST drives you to do whatever you do. We can be lack of motivation and we don't even realize it. "What do I do now?" Read books. Watch things that inspire you,  it can be anything, really. To me, even videos about cute babies can do. You can also try to make this thing called "Motivation board" where you can put motivational quotes, your friends/ family photos, your goals, and anything which can boost your spirit. Just give it a try, and you'll see.

3. Treat yourself!

We all have those days when we don't even have time for ourselves. We have to do this and that, assignments, exams, work, or anything that keeps us busy. We start to care less about our health and we end up pushing ourselves too hard on everything because we want to get our works done. It's not bad at all to be so much goal-oriented, but working too hard can cause you more trouble. Stop for a while, and do yourself a favor. You can hang out with your friends, buy yourself something you want (e.g: chocolate is a great mood booster for me), or for a quick treat you can spend your time listening to your favourite songs. You're still a human being after all, not a robot.

4. See the core of the problems

You might be having a lot of things going on, and you don't know where to start solving your problems. We can have multiple problems at a time, so start finding the core of what's really bothering you. It's possible that you're actually really annoyed with a certain thing, but you also have a few things that are also bothering you, but not as much. In the end you just have no clue of why you're so bitter about everything. Know yourself and try to admit how you're actually feeling about the core problem, once you find it. Do not hold it or lie to yourself.

5. Go social

Sometimes the solution is just to socialize more and get together with some friends or people you love. Especially if you've been busy with things and you can't. Supports from your beloved ones are always precious and are very good for mood boosting. For a sanguine like me, this is one of the things that keeps me sane. I like to discuss and share my thoughts and problems with people I trust. Just so that I wouldn't explode by keeping it all to myself.

So the five points above can probably explain about why we can feel this "uneasy", "exhausted", or "bitter" feelings that we couldn't really understand before. In my opinion, the most important thing is to keep a balanced state of mind and health. With that, we'll do just fine.

Thoughts? leave your comments.

Live life to the fullest.

Janet

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